Look Out Bambi

Tripod Deer Stand. I have to put mine together yet…

I’m getting busy. My hobbies and interests are re-awakening in my mind. You know, there are things I like to do.

I got my archery deer tags today. The season started Sept 15th, and I haven’t actually gone out, but I have my tags! I picked out a spot behind the house, in the woods. I’ll set put together my stand soon and sit quietly for hours…thinking.

The griddle rust was no match for my power drill. I had not cooked much on it and it gathered some rust spots. I cleaned it up and straightened the area on the side of the house where I put the griddle, smoker, and lawn chairs. It was the area Jana and I were going to clean up and sit to watch the birds and squirrels this fall.

My interests still don’t hold a lot for me, and they may even change some. I can sense new things coming. My life has changed so drastically in the last couple of years. Jana’s death was the biggest change, by far, but there have been so many other changes leading up to August 7th. There are more changes coming, too.

Everything is different. Sometimes I am amazed at how different my life is in this moment. What will it look like in 6 months? A year? 5 years? It overwhelms me to think about all that has happened and will happen in the future.

I am living now…for the future. Behaviors and decisions that I make will effect me going forward, and I recognize that. The future does look bright, God is working…

Author: kcradioman

I am the Director of Twin Oaks Family Care in Excelsior Springs, Mo. I hold a Master of Arts in counseling from Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary and, currently, am working on the Doctor of Ministry in Care and Counseling at MBTS. My wife and I were married in 1998 and we had 2 daughters. On July 26th, 2019, my lovely wife, Jana, was diagnosed with Leukemia and began treatment. On Aug 7th, 2019, she died of complications from the chemo treatment. God prepared us and sustains us. My way of grieving includes being open and transparent about my feelings. My hope is to provide a voice of support for others experiencing grief.

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