Safe At Home

It’s about to snow for the first time this season. The first accumulating snow, the kind that makes driving difficult. The worries of family and friends getting home safe are just around the corner!

When you’re waiting on a loved one to get home, nerves can get the best of you. Those worrisome thoughts creep in and mess with your mind. Then, when everyone is home, those fears are long gone and you know everyone is safe.

Jana is safe, but at times I feel like I am waiting nervously for her return through the snow. There is anxiety, fear, and doubts that all make my stomach ache. Maybe it’s the fact that I don’t know what she is seeing. I know it’s marvelous! But, I am not with her, looking out for her, caring for her…

As in all of life with every relationship and person I love, I must trust that God is good, like His word tells me.

The LORD will protect you from all harm; he will protect your life. The LORD will protect your coming and going both now and forever.

Psalm 121:7-8

Jana’s life is protected. She is kept from all harm…both now (when she was here with us) and forever! God is personally protecting her, just as He protects all of His children. Man! I find great comfort in this. I can lay my head down at night knowing that Jana is free from harm. My pitiful attempts at protecting her are nothing compared to the care that our Heavenly Father gives.

Ultimately, I am also thankful for the protection God gives me, both now and forever. Through the blood of Jesus, shed for me, I have forgiveness of sins and access to the Father. Praise the Lord – this life is not all there is! I have a great hope in heaven, which is where a joyous eternity will be spent with Jana, loved ones, and most importantly Jesus!

Author: kcradioman

I am the Director of Twin Oaks Family Care in Excelsior Springs, Mo. I hold a Master of Arts in counseling from Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary and, currently, am working on the Doctor of Ministry in Care and Counseling at MBTS. My wife and I were married in 1998 and we had 2 daughters. On July 26th, 2019, my lovely wife, Jana, was diagnosed with Leukemia and began treatment. On Aug 7th, 2019, she died of complications from the chemo treatment. God prepared us and sustains us. My way of grieving includes being open and transparent about my feelings. My hope is to provide a voice of support for others experiencing grief.

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