Quick Note About… Nothing

If I am not careful, I will waste my days away. My despondency will overtake my drive for accomplishment. It happens in the little decisions. Motivation dwindles…interest can fade…

It is easy to fall into blah. Nothing really matters, not interested in getting done what needs to be done, and my prayer is that, hopefully, everything will just work itself out. Nothing matters…God even feels far, far away…

“Nothing” by Depeche Mode

The problem is that I can unintentionally transfer my thoughts onto others and think that nobody else really cares about anything, namely my pain, either. When I am depressed, everything gets colored in the dark clouds of depression…even relationships.

The truth is, many people care! Depressed thinking can trick me into thinking negatively when I know it’s not the case. Fortunately, I don’t feel this way for long. And…there is objective truth out there!

Several in scripture felt the darkness of depression and exemplified the distorted thinking:

[23] Why is life given to a man whose path is hidden, whom God has hedged in? [24] I sigh when food is put before me, and my groans pour out like water. [25] For the thing I feared has overtaken me, and what I dreaded has happened to me. [26] I cannot relax or be calm; I have no rest, for turmoil has come.

Job 3:23-26 (Job)

I will say to God, my rock, “Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about in sorrow because of the enemy’s oppression?”

Psalm 42:9

[3] Then Elijah became afraid and immediately ran for his life. When he came to Beer-sheba that belonged to Judah, he left his servant there, [4] but he went on a day’s journey into the wilderness. He sat down under a broom tree and prayed that he might die. He said, “I have had enough! LORD, take my life, for I’m no better than my fathers.”

1 Kings 19:3-4

Each of the individuals in the examples above turned their sights to God. They all acknowledged that they would “still praise Him!” This is how I should approach the depressed moments. Realize that my feelings are not truth, and choose to stand on God’s word!

Author: kcradioman

I am the Director of Twin Oaks Family Care in Excelsior Springs, Mo. I hold a Master of Arts in counseling from Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary and, currently, am working on the Doctor of Ministry in Care and Counseling at MBTS. My wife and I were married in 1998 and we had 2 daughters. On July 26th, 2019, my lovely wife, Jana, was diagnosed with Leukemia and began treatment. On Aug 7th, 2019, she died of complications from the chemo treatment. God prepared us and sustains us. My way of grieving includes being open and transparent about my feelings. My hope is to provide a voice of support for others experiencing grief.

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