Come to Me

I find myself crumpled in the corner. I’m clutching things that hold immense value to me. Some of the items include vacation pictures of Jana, a sweater she wore on one of our many date nights, and her journal filled with notes of faith-filled wrestlings with God and His call on her life. My knuckles are white as I hold these articles tightly to my chest and my tears threaten to ruin the photos. Facing the corner, I hide in my pain, clenching my eyes shut. Letting no one in…

Come to Me…

There is a gentle touch on my shoulder. I feel the warmth, I know there is thoughtful presence in this touch. A knowing, understanding connection that lovingly begins to pull me from my darkness. Fear organizes a powerful struggle against changing from the defensive posture in which I have constructed. Eventually, my new heart wins out and I trust the Spirit…

Come to Me…

Slowly, almost imperceptibly, I turn. My hands eventually relax on the items I have loved so dearly. As I adjust position my eyes open and I notice a beautifully built wood box sitting close to me. There is a gold plate on the front of the container with the simple inscription “Eternity” written on it.

Come to Me…

Reaching out, I carefully place my items, one by one, into the box until I have released everything in my hands. Holding nothing anymore, I turn, fully facing the One who drew me out and He softly beckons me. I throw my unencumbered arms wide and with tears of joy streaming down my face, I hold tightly to my Savior. I am home.

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take up my yoke and learn from me, because I am lowly and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Matthew 11:28-30

Author: kcradioman

I am the Director of Twin Oaks Family Care in Excelsior Springs, Mo. I hold a Master of Arts in counseling from Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary and, currently, am working on the Doctor of Ministry in Care and Counseling at MBTS. My wife and I were married in 1998 and we had 2 daughters. On July 26th, 2019, my lovely wife, Jana, was diagnosed with Leukemia and began treatment. On Aug 7th, 2019, she died of complications from the chemo treatment. God prepared us and sustains us. My way of grieving includes being open and transparent about my feelings. My hope is to provide a voice of support for others experiencing grief.

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