What is the Christmas celebration? Yes, for certain, it is the birth of Jesus. But, His birth does not bring the pain of missing loved ones, it’s the one thing that brings hope! No, celebration, and struggle, is also in the gathering, I think.
Each year, we gather and enjoy one another’s presence. We also recognized our losses. At the gathering we happily note those who are there and sadly remember those who aren’t. It’s natural. It’s our time to “check in” on everybody.
Maybe I strive for too much? Looking for the “feeling” of Christmas. Elusive, childlike excitement for the holiday. Real life has overtaken any hope for magical moments this year.
Today is the 26th. Christmas has come and now gone. I’m still in one piece. I had a wonderful time with family, enjoying their gracious hospitality. These days have, at times, been very tough. I took my space when needed and joined in where I could. Did it “feel” like Christmas?
Maybe I will look back at this “first” and find joy in it later? I’m down, but not really down.
Our gathering was lacking… by a significant “one” this year. This fact never leaves my sight. There is not a moment that I’m not thinking about Jana and the pain her absence brings.
These thoughts, though, are ongoing. It doesn’t take a holiday for me to miss her. Christmas, as beautiful as it is, simply focuses my attention on who didn’t gather to celebrate Immanuel.
Now all this took place to fulfill what was spoken by the Lord through the prophet: See, the virgin will become pregnant and give birth to a son, and they will name him Immanuel, which is translated “God is with us.”Matthew 1:22-23