On the 8th, earthly-time went on leaving Jana behind on the 7th. Then, the days of August ended and, again, moved on without Jana. Now, the calendar will turn to the new year, and time is doing it’s best to shuffle this one significant life into the stack of eternity. Old Man Time will not take away my memory, though…just fade portions of it.
In this place, we are bound by time. It holds us in, keeps us in line, and incessantly marches on… No stopping to make sure everybody is onboard. If your not in and buckled up, it’s leaving without you. Time grows the young into the old, brings changes both good and bad, and forces us to live, however long, according to it’s previous work.
Of course, many of us know this path of life as God’s will. These things don’t happen apart from His direction. All things happen through and for Jesus.
He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For everything was created by him, in heaven and on earth, the visible and the invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities- all things have been created through him and for him. He is before all things, and by him all things hold together.
Maybe it’s easy to want to blame some facet of creation, like time, for the problems that I endure. But, the truth is, God has a plan that He is working out. It is true that time keeps moving, but it is equally true that the Lord stands with us as the clock ticks and the years go by.
Moving into a new year just punctuates my loss. Now, I begin specifying, “she died last year.” Someday, Lord willing, I will note, “she died 5 years ago.” How will that feel? How will I be coping then? I pray my thoughts of her bring smiles and warmth. Now, memories can easily conjure pain, but, on occasion I am able to smile like it was still early 2019.
Love you, Jana. See you later.