Let me be clear, I deserve nothing. There is nothing that I have done, or that is inherently special about me that God should be compelled to give me anything. There is nothing that I have gone through that would warrant God’s kindness to me. But, in His grace, He chooses to give good things to me regardless.
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
So often, I cry and ask God for His presence and help. Sometimes, I sense His closeness, other times He feels very distant… My grief settled in like a cloud over my sight, and my emotions often rule the relationship. I long to hear from God, sense His presence, and know that He does care about me and my troubles.
I have suffered great loss. Most of my days over the last six months have been filled with pain and discomfort. God hears my cries and chooses to express His comfort and love for me in various ways. One of those special connections is through gifts.
God has been good to me through the gift of my family, friends, and close relationships. The many people in my life, right at this moment, have supported me in ways that I would have never imagined possible. The Lord has placed wonderful counselors, listeners, and faithful men and women in my path that have touched my heart and soul. I will remember these brothers and sisters for the rest of my life.
The Lord has also given gifts that, on the surface, don’t seem like much, but, as soon as I received these special things, I knew, immediately, God was being kind to me. Not coincidences, but something special from a loving Father. Giving that the Spirit acknowledged to my heart.
The first such thing was my deer. My buck probably wouldn’t matter to many, but for a 20-year hunter, it was the harvest of a lifetime. As soon as I saw the deer strutting down the middle of the field, with the largest rack I have ever seen from a stand, I sensed God’s kindness. This type of deer is not common, and I recognized the stamp of my Heavenly Father on this gift.
Another example effects many, especially in my area – the Chiefs going to the Super Bowl. I don’t claim this event was God doing something for me, alone, but, I do recognize the fact that this has never happened in my lifetime…and, now it has. Jana and I were big Chiefs fans and we loved to go watch their pre-season practice and spend those summer days together in St. Joseph. We watched the games together and enjoyed being fans. She would have loved this. From my little vantage point, I am thanking God for allowing this unique event at this time.
There are other things, too, that have great significance and meaning that God has bestowed on me in the past six months. I do not find it to be coincidence that these “once-in-a-lifetime” events have happened, now, in this time of my life. I am sensitive to His provision and closeness. I need this. I need Him, and, He is gracious enough to give.
Father, I see You in these gifts during this painful time of my life. You are being kind to me in fun, special little ways. Lord, You love me and care for me. Thank you for noting your love and presence in everyday things that have extraordinary meaning, to me. I am blessed to be Your child. Amen.