Quick Note About… Nothing

If I am not careful, I will waste my days away. My despondency will overtake my drive for accomplishment. It happens in the little decisions. Motivation dwindles…interest can fade… It is easy to fall into blah. Nothing really matters, not interested in getting done what needs to be done, and my prayer is that, hopefully,…

Take the Step

There is a big step before me. It’s a decision that I have made in the past. A thought that got ironed out in the general angst of young adulthood… The decision is whether or not to take a step forward and live. This step does not entail leaving my grief, abandoning my sorrow over…

Safe At Home

It’s about to snow for the first time this season. The first accumulating snow, the kind that makes driving difficult. The worries of family and friends getting home safe are just around the corner! When you’re waiting on a loved one to get home, nerves can get the best of you. Those worrisome thoughts creep…

Exactly as He Planned

Why do I have to remind myself that Jana has died? Every so often, I find myself, sometimes saying out loud, “She is gone.” Then I consider that fact and go positive or negative in my next thoughts… Negative thinking includes sorrow, anger, and almost a sense of panic…wanting to yell out loud or fall…

Even the Little Things

My memories of Jana are countless. When I consider all the little things…the shared moments that nobody else was necessarily a part of. I am conscious of the things she liked, the events we laughed at, and the little physical problems we all encounter. So many things, that only I know… As I move along…

Worry, Work, and Feet

In marriage, their is a functional division of labor that occurs. Each person settles into their particular role within the family. Maybe certain chores are split up or activities get divided, but there are two to shoulder the burdens of life. When a partner is suddenly missing from the equation, the work falls to one….

Fulfilled

It’s so quiet. Our home was never a “loud” place. But, there was always a good deal of laughter and horsing around. Even just conversation would fill the air. There is still a bit of chatter and sounds of people doing their thing, but it feels quieter. I am involved in a more solitary life….

Character – Authentic Faith

We have also obtained access through him by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also rejoice in our afflictions, because we know that affliction produces endurance, endurance produces proven character, and proven character produces hope. Romans…

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Sympathizers. Encouragers. Well-wishers. Helpers. Those who come alongside you in times of trouble. I have had many! And, I am thankful, and continue to be thankful, for their support! We all approach our own grief differently – this is true in how we approach somebody else’s grief, too. I understand a person’s orientation to trials…

Grief’s Selfish Design

My prayers have been very conversational, lately. I have been explaining my feelings to God and asking His help for very specific things. There is a confidence that I have when talking to God. When He assures me that all is under His control and I rest in His mighty hand, then I am calm…