Divine Appointments Abound

I cannot over-emphasize the meaningful ministry of friends and family who have supported me in the last 4 months. There are days that, without the selfless care of others, I feel that I would have fallen to pieces. Praise the Lord for His people! We have all heard of those moments when God prompts another…

Riding Upward Again

A little breakdown, a short time to vent…then back on the trail. The emotions rise and fall like a Ferris wheel, up – then down, up – then down. And, sometimes the wheel stops at a point, either high or low or somewhere more even…then, eventually, the carney with the hairy arms, bushy eyebrows, and…

Two ARE One

Some days the grief leaves you feeling blah. No particular motivation, no particular feeling…just indifferent to it all. I suppose that would be preferable to the intense pain. I am not a person that has generally felt this way. In the past, I have had my depressed moments, but nothing that lingered very long. These…

A Bigger Picture

Relationships are all about the possibilities. A key feature is the ability to know somebody deeper as the relationship progresses, be it a friend, family member, or spouse. If there are problems or breaks in the relationship, hope of reconciliation always lingers in the wings for it’s opportunity to heal. What happens when one member…

Come to Me

I find myself crumpled in the corner. I’m clutching things that hold immense value to me. Some of the items include vacation pictures of Jana, a sweater she wore on one of our many date nights, and her journal filled with notes of faith-filled wrestlings with God and His call on her life. My knuckles…

Balanced Thinking

There is a large scale in my mind that holds major concepts on each side. One side of the scale holds “grief.” The other side of the scale is a little more complicated. It holds “future”, “healing”, and “faith,” among other ideas in the same context. The scale started tipping toward grief on July 26th,…

Even the Little Things

My memories of Jana are countless. When I consider all the little things…the shared moments that nobody else was necessarily a part of. I am conscious of the things she liked, the events we laughed at, and the little physical problems we all encounter. So many things, that only I know… As I move along…